Hi there 👋

My name is Jenny, and this is my blog.

I've been talking about, thinking about and saying I would start a blog for what seems like and eternity. But, I'm a master procratinator, so that makes sense. Haha!

Don't get me wrong, I'm not putting myself down. In fact, I think finding humor and not taking yourself too seriously is a healthy way to live.

I am also a recovering perfectionist and people pleaser. A high achiever with no direction, due to massive fear of failure. I created roadblocks for myself at every turn and I believe it was because I spent so much time, energy and effort trying to figure out who everyone else wanted me to be instead of just being me.

No matter what I did, I never felt like I was enough. I thought being who everyone else wanted me to be, would make me feel valuable and loved. It ended up leaving me exhausted, unfulfilled and empty. And the way I coped with those emotions was to seek comfort in food and later alcohol.

Doing so only added fuel to the fire. Eventually, I got to such a low point that I felt like I had two choices. Dig myself out of the pit of despair I was in by recognizing the way I was doing things was not working and it was time to try something new. Or, give up completely.

Thankfully, my children saved my life. As someone who's own mother abandoned her and seeing the effect that had on me, I could NOT do that to my kids. I would not do that to my kids. I didn't value myself enough to fight, but I love them more than anything. And through that, I'm learning to love myself.